Second Shot

Seems like the whole of July just came and went. Well, not really, just obviously nothing particularly interesting happening. Except for going to Lille with Ting for a city break, which was very nice and well recommended. My French was as bad as I thought it would be.

Anyway, you’re all probably still wondering what the hell I’m still doing here (Steven’s Last Night in Town, for all you Ben Folds Five fans). Well, it’s all gone a little thrupney bits up with the Toronto malarkey. Having finally written my email to the guys in Toronto with a committed date, I get the call that one guy has taken a year absence of leave and the other has just resigned. Hah! I laugh down the phone. Quite incredulous is what I was thinking; having done everything we needed to to get my visa ready, it all folds in.

I didn’t know what to think really although my hope didn’t initially burst; I was quite alright about it for some reason. Like it was all a bit of a joke, thinking that I’ll get there eventually. But recently I’d been getting a bit sulky about it and I’m none too certain what would make me go there now. The main thing I’ve come to announce is to ensure that the guys over in Toronto has the same amount of enthusiasm as the original two had, and that they can convince me and give me the same level of confidence as when I started the whole process.

It’s been a bit deflating, which at the time I hadn’t thought it would. Now I’m wondering if I’m stuck here or do I go for it anyway. I’m on the fence but unbalanced towards staying at the moment. Still, there’s the flipside that I can stay and enjoy my time with Ting a while longer.